You’ve Lost Your Child To Suicide

You’ve Lost Your Child To Suicide Shock. Pain. Denial. Shock. Thank goodness for shock. That moment when I knew my baby girl was gone. I have no words to describe ‘it’. ‘It?’ What is ‘it’? I’ll try to explain. It’s...
Why?!

Why?!

I had a dream last night. I was with a group of people some of which were young teenage girls. We were at a summer type retreat in Springville, Utah, by the Virgin River. There was one girl in particular that suffered with PTSD due to a near-drowning experience. We...
We are Mutants

We are Mutants

I watch. A lot. I have this gift/burden to see your truth, your bottom line. I don’t know why because often I feel I’m out of my lane, unwelcome. Learning to stay in my lane has been very helpful yet I feel like I’m ignoring a part of me that is a...
Who’s Your Lighthouse?

Who’s Your Lighthouse?

I had a wonderful day yesterday with family and friends. Part of what made the day so beautiful is a very powerful realization. I’ll explain. Little Leo is still in the NICU. I’m not worried. I’ve walked this path with Chay as a 28 week preemie 25...
Ketamine Spray

Ketamine Spray

The After Story Let’s get one thing straight. What I’m about to share is my experience with ketamine spray not es-ketamine a derivative created by Johnson and Johnson labeled as Spravato. Nope. Not Spravato. It’s been about 5 months since I finished...