If He Dies…

If He Dies…

Got a desperate message last night from a person that helped me after Hannah’s suicide. Her adult child has been threatening suicide for a long time and last night it felt closer than ever. What hit so hard last night was her admonition that if he goes, so does...
A Gift

A Gift

I took my husbands phone in order to expedite our camping trip departure. He agreed to the arragement. He is almost always on the phone. As a matter of fact, it’s the first morning of our camping trip and he’s off in the trees talking on his phone. But I...
Who’s Your Lighthouse?

Who’s Your Lighthouse?

I had a wonderful day yesterday with family and friends. Part of what made the day so beautiful is a very powerful realization. I’ll explain. Little Leo is still in the NICU. I’m not worried. I’ve walked this path with Chay as a 28 week preemie 25...

Truth Sets Me Free

And sometimes it’s a painful journey.I was feeling really sad about all the unique mommy/daughter experiences I would miss out on. So, as usual, I shared my grief on social media. And, as usual, many wonderful souls stepped up and comforted me.All but one.He...
Ketamine – The Results

Ketamine – The Results

There are so many things I want to say. I find it hard to put into words. How do I explain a fundamental change in me? Are all my problems gone? No. Am I happy all the time? No. Do I still experience anxiety and depression? Yes. Do I respond differently to my anxiety...