Why?!

Why?!

I had a dream last night. I was with a group of people some of which were young teenage girls. We were at a summer type retreat in Springville, Utah, by the Virgin River. There was one girl in particular that suffered with PTSD due to a near-drowning experience. We...
If He Dies…

If He Dies…

Got a desperate message last night from a person that helped me after Hannah’s suicide. Her adult child has been threatening suicide for a long time and last night it felt closer than ever. What hit so hard last night was her admonition that if he goes, so does...
Blame!

Blame!

Do I blame someone, anyone for Hannah’s suicide? If we blame one person for anyone’s suicide, then it opens the door to blame… across the board. NO! NO! NO! NO! Blame is a roadblock to healing for everyone! I agree that we may experience that in our...
Who’s Your Lighthouse?

Who’s Your Lighthouse?

I had a wonderful day yesterday with family and friends. Part of what made the day so beautiful is a very powerful realization. I’ll explain. Little Leo is still in the NICU. I’m not worried. I’ve walked this path with Chay as a 28 week preemie 25...
Ketamine Spray

Ketamine Spray

The After Story Let’s get one thing straight. What I’m about to share is my experience with ketamine spray not es-ketamine a derivative created by Johnson and Johnson labeled as Spravato. Nope. Not Spravato. It’s been about 5 months since I finished...