Why?!

Why?!

I had a dream last night. I was with a group of people some of which were young teenage girls. We were at a summer type retreat in Springville, Utah, by the Virgin River. There was one girl in particular that suffered with PTSD due to a near-drowning experience. We...
If He Dies…

If He Dies…

Got a desperate message last night from a person that helped me after Hannah’s suicide. Her adult child has been threatening suicide for a long time and last night it felt closer than ever. What hit so hard last night was her admonition that if he goes, so does...
Blame!

Blame!

Do I blame someone, anyone for Hannah’s suicide? If we blame one person for anyone’s suicide, then it opens the door to blame… across the board. NO! NO! NO! NO! Blame is a roadblock to healing for everyone! I agree that we may experience that in our...
We are Mutants

We are Mutants

I watch. A lot. I have this gift/burden to see your truth, your bottom line. I don’t know why because often I feel I’m out of my lane, unwelcome. Learning to stay in my lane has been very helpful yet I feel like I’m ignoring a part of me that is a...
Ketamine Spray

Ketamine Spray

The After Story Let’s get one thing straight. What I’m about to share is my experience with ketamine spray not es-ketamine a derivative created by Johnson and Johnson labeled as Spravato. Nope. Not Spravato. It’s been about 5 months since I finished...